Overwhelming

(Hopefully, a message of hope)

It is overwhelming how many things we have to remember on a daily basis. It is overwhelming how many things we have to be careful what we say and do. Pretty soon it will not be illegal or frowned upon to be yourself, your original self. Kind of grim and pessimistic, but hey, that’s where we are heading if we take humor, love, compassion, and intelligence out of daily life.

Laugh at yourself, you are a funny thing. You look funny, sound funny and the things that you do are funny. Realize what is funny to you and laugh. Find the humor in life because there is some. The world can be so overwhelming that we forget to laugh and giggle once and awhile. Plus, it burns calories.

Love yourself, love the ones around you. You don’t have an eternity here, so love your family, your friends. The body you’re in is the body you were meant to be in. Embrace it and take care of it because it will get you far. Find the parts of yourself that you love and learn to love the parts you’re not too fond of. The world can be so overwhelming that we forget to love who we are and the people around us.

Be compassionate to others. Everyone is fighting secret battles with themselves. Some people are up against physical or verbal threat. Try and see everyone in the same light, treat them the same. Everyone deserves compassion and respect. The world is so overwhelming that we forget to see past someone’s exterior and to care for our fellow-man.

Be intelligent. Seek knowledge, seek truth. Don’t stop filling your head with information. Knowledge is powerful and useful. Knowledge is beautiful and desirable. The world is so overwhelming that people forget that they still need to learn. They still should want to gain knowledge and information, for that is what makes us stronger.

The world is overwhelming, life is overwhelming. We have to acknowledge that it’s not supposed to be easy or beautiful. It’s supposed to be challenging, eventful. That is what makes it all worthwhile, the journey.

Daily Prompt Word:

Overwhelming

Open Discussion on Anxiety-Part 2

This past weekend I had another anxiety attack. That makes two this month. A few years ago I was diagnosed as having anxiety. It was so nice then to finally put a name to what I was going through, what I had been going through for a long time. It all made sense once there was a name to it. But that’s not entirely accurate. I’m still trying to understand anxiety and how I can alleviate it. I don’t believe there’s any getting rid of it, but I know I can take steps to ease it to an almost obscure level. I’m still working on this, so it’s a work in progress.

It’s hard to get people to understand anxiety. People automatically think it’s something controllable, or that you must be scared of everything, easily spooked. That’s not the case. Some people have certain triggers that make them anxious more than other things. We’re not necessarily constantly scared, we can just become really anxious in certain situations or when something specific happens.

Once the panic attach is intent on coming, it can’t be stopped. The attacks sometime can come without warning or sympathy. The trick is to remind yourself who you are, what you’re going through and that everything will be fine. It’s like your mind is whacking out and that same mind has to try and convince it to calm down. It can be confusing right? I’ve learned a lot, but I don’t believe I’ve learned everything there is about anxiety. I can’t predict an anxiety attack but I can feel it coming, by then it’s unstoppable. The attack will come, you just have to decide how you will handle it, how much control you will let it have. At this point of realization I try different exercises, slow/calm breathing, talking aloud about what I’m going through.

If I had to describe the feeling of an anxiety episode, it’s like riding out a bad storm. You just hang in there doing your exercises and then eventually the sun will come out, the episode will subside and you will feel like normal again. That’s really the best part, because before that you feel like the world is ending or that you’re not going to last through it. That may seem silly to most, but that is the brain tricking itself. It tells you that something is wrong, makes you feel like your heart is beating fast and that you can’t breathe. It’s all in the brain. The brain is a truly beautiful and wonderful thing but it can cause you to see things that aren’t there or to feel something happening that is simply not happening. All we can do is try and explain it to other people, but it’s tough because the brain and the entirety of its power is still a mystery. We just have to be patient.

Open Discussion on Anxiety

Anxiety has been one of the toughest fights of my life, ironically one of the toughest in my life is against myself. I’ve always been anxious as a child but it’s steadily became more and more of a problem as a I grew up. I didn’t know what it was or whether I was just crazy. I didn’t know what to do or that there was anything you could do. I didn’t really talk about it because I figured people would think I was crazy, so I dealt with it myself internally for a number of years. About 9 months to ago, I realized that I no longer had control over what my head was doing. About a year ago, I was getting sick a lot, colds, etc. Every time I felt ill or frustrated from an illness I would get panic attacks. Luckily I never went to the ER, I wanted to, I always called my doctor’s office and either spoke to a nurse or on-call physician.

From July 2014 to September 2014 I had a series of scares that led me to my doctor’s office each time. I would be sitting at my desk and next thing I knew I was sweating, heart was beating fast and just felt like I needed to get out, get help. Another incident was when I was driving I started to feel like I was having a heart attack. I had the nurse on with me from my doctor’s office to help talk me down. My latest was in September 2014 when I felt like my lungs were expanded and getting poked by my ribs. The doctor after that visit discussed trying me on some medication. Ever since then it has been helping me keep the calm. My grandfather passed about a month after I started taking it, so I am glad I was on it at that time, to help soften the blow (if at all possible). I plan to wean off of it soon, but wanted to share some of my story. I want people to understand that medicine isn’t the answer, it helps when you need it, to help stabilize the erratic thoughts in your head.

I’ve had an interesting journey, have found some ways to relieve tension and anxiety. Besides writing I do like to read. It helps to find something to distract your busy mind, at the end of the day.