I decided enough is enough, I want to run my first half-marathon before I get married this December. Part of me is saying, “You can do this, if you can do the Gate River Run, you can do this.” The other part of me is saying, “Are you nuts? You’re not that fastest, not that strongest, you’re weak.” It’s the second voice that I have to fight most often. I feel like it’s my 4th grade asthmatic self that keeps reminding me that I’m not an elite athlete, I’m just a normal person. But, as I tell that second voice, normal people can still do amazing things. They can push themselves and survive.
I tell myself that I can do this, if not for myself, then for people all over the world who cannot. Just look at some of the amazing veterans right now, who can run marathons with prosthetic limbs. If they can persevere and push themselves to do amazing things, why can’t I? I’ve just really learned to put it all in perspective. If I want something, I got to do it now because there really are no guarantees that I will get to do it tomorrow or in the future. I want to push and challenge myself to do things I previously never thought I could do.
It really is amazing when you think you cannot do something, then you do it and prove yourself wrong. It is the best feeling, really hard to describe. Like when my family (mom, aunt, uncle, cousin) convinced me to do a 5K in 2012. It was my very first one, didn’t know what a 5K was. My family said to take it at my own pace and I would be fine. It was a stadium run, so we dealt with different levels/elevations as well as off/on rain. It was tough but I kept going, never stopping and finished. I wasn’t last either. It was so rewarding to complete something you never thought would be possible.
I hope to continue proving myself wrong and that I’ll continue to surprise myself around every bend. Wish me luck as I attempt to conquer the half-marathon this weekend!